Things happen for a reason, and i guess thats exactly why this happened. I was sorry, sorry for all the things I did to you. I want you back in my life, but all you knew was how much freedom you have been deprived, how many things you couldnt do. This ain't love, if you did love me you wouldnt have mind all these things, maybe this is wishful thinking, but you wouldn't have mind it if you loved me wholeheartedly. What we had was so beautiful, and yet you are telling me at 19 this is not a r/s others are living. Of course it isn't, its the best love in the world. No one can beat that. I wish you listened to taylor swift's Back To December and realize what a grave mistake you made. There, you can have your freedom now. Clubs, going out no one is ever going to stop you now. Its sad how warped your thinking is. All you think about is why I didnt go look you up. YOU EXPECT IT TO BE FUCKING EASY? EASY TO GET OVER WHAT U DID WHEN I WENT OVER TO MADE IT UP TO YOU THE LAST TIME ROUND. I CHOSE NOT TO OVERCOME MY FEARS. HOW THE FUCK CAN U SAY THIS. They are fears for a reason, but you are so selfish you wont see it. I wished you came over to, but did you? NO. But I didnt say anything because I know its too much to ask for. Being in a r/s has to be a mutual thing, and this feels nothing like it. The manner you ignored me, the manner you didnt ignore me only made me conclude that breaking up is the best for us. I hate how I always blog only when times are bad. Im sorry but I need to rant. Plus this is somewhere no one would see it, not even you. I hate this, i need to pick myself up and together. I smashed that photo above my bed, its over. I loved you way more than you ever realise or you ever did. The only sweet memories about us would only be the trip to thailand. I miss those times, but it'll never come back. I wish you well in everything you do. Farewell
